So, to be completely honest, coming back this blog after gaining all my weigh was kind of depressing. As a result, I have decided to start a entire new blog.
I have written a long introductory post, that you might be interested to see.
Thanks for reading, and I hope you will follow on the new blog.
So, I’m back, I’m married, and I’m 304 pounds. I have a new Primary Care Physician, and she’s wonderful. She doesn’t treat me like an idiot. She talks about medical research, and the newest medical information out there. We see eye to eye. I’ve never had a doctor so easy to talk to, and it is making everything so much easier.
So, to tell you where I am on my journey, I am worse off than I have ever been. I have been having extreme back pain over the last 9 months to a year, as I’ve gained much more weight because of various life events. I cannot walk short distances without excruciating pain in my lower back. I cannot stand up and do the dishes or make dinner without pain. My rolling desk chair has become my backbone.
I hate all of this.
I’m an active person inside. I yearn to get up and move and play sports, and be outside in general. I wish I could move without pain. My life has become so embarrassing. I have to use the motorized carts when shopping, and dread if I meet anyone I know, so I don’t go out very often. If there is something I have to do that requires activity, I have to come up with clever ways to try and hide the pain, and “casually” sit at every chance I get. Again,
I hate living like this.
And I have failed way too much with my weight loss.
I’m tired of being obese, and letting my obesity control every aspect of my life.
So, I finally talked to my doctor about Gastric Bypass. After blood work came back (I’m pre-diabetic, but everything else is great) she agreed to and recommended Gastric Bypasss surgery. she is referring me to a Bariatric Surgeon, and I’m awaiting the call as we speak. She wants me to have an x-ray on my back to make sure it is just a weight problem, and a lung capacity test (which are both scheduled).
I’m nervous because I know the things that can go wrong. BUT even more-so, I’m excited that I may be on the right track to get my life back. I’ve been warning my family for awhile that this may be coming, and I think they are finally going to be supportive, and my husband is right here with me every step of the way.
I know I have a long way to go to the actual surgery (and I’m going for the RNY, but knowing the referral is coming – I am so excited!
So, to anyone reading this (especially those who have had any type of WLS), any advice for me in the coming months?
For the past few days, life has gotten in the way. My ankle pain has flared up so I’m pretty much couch ridden. I can’t do any exercise on it unless I want to deal with more pain.
I only lost a total of 2.4 lbs last week. I thought it would be more for the first week, but I did lose track a little bit.
I had a PBJ binge yesterday… not good with all of the calories in peanut butter.
Hopefully the rest of my week will go better. Its the last week before classes start, so lets see how I do!
Holy Crap! Bob kicked my butt! I could barely finish the beginner workout, and I was majorly sweating. Generally, I like the game. There are a few quirks though. The calories burned seems very low. For the entire workout it said burned 53 calories, when on any other game it probably would have said double that for the 30 minute workout. It definitely is a la Biggest Loser though. I like it more than Wii Fit because it is more fitness oriented.
I went to the doctor yesterday, which means I was traveling. I only ended up eating breakfast and dinner so I was under calories.
I had to fast for 12 hours so I could get blood work done today. We’ll see what comes of that. I ended up having 800 calories of fast food for breakfast… (this is why I chose to exercise today).
Hopefully I’ll manage to not go over 1500.
This will probably come up as the 13th, but it is still the 12th to me. I can’t help that I’m a night owl!
A couple hours after I woke up, I learned devastating news. My Aunt has been diagnosed with Colon Cancer. There is a lot to say about this, but I can’t think of what to write… We are very worried, and she is meeting with the doctor on Thursday to see what steps need to be taken. I’m hoping for the best, but it is very very easy to think the worst.
I am proud of myself because I have always been an emotional eater, and today, somehow, I avoided that. I actually came in UNDER my calorie count (and I had homemade PIZZA for dinner!).
Also, I was trying some of those new wii fitness games I have, and got annoyed with “running” in front of the TV so my fiancee and I decided to go out for a power walk – at 11:30 PM. We walked from our house to the edge of campus – which I never though I would do- and back. It was 1.5 miles. It may not seem a lot to most people, but for me that is an amazing task. My back was killing me about a half mile through, but I persevered through it and I finished it! My fiancee really helped me through it. WOOT!!!
BTW: I REALLY LOVE PIZZA!!!
I found a pizza recipe that makes 2 – 12″ thin crusts where the crust is 300 calories for half a pizza- then I added 1/4 cup of cheese to each half (100 more calories) and I use 2TBSP of frank’s red hot for each half (around 10 calories). So for 410 calories I had a totally satisfying and delicious dinner. MMmm MMmm good!
Approximate total calorie intake for the day: 1,075
I snuck in a weigh in this morning, and I was down to 250.4 – that is 2 lbs in 3 days (even with my totally off day)!
I’m not recording it because I only record the weekly weight, but I’m happy to see a downward trend!
Yesterday I consumed about 1500 calories. My target is around 1200, but I’ve been below one day then above. If you add them together it averages to around 1200. Apparently, without knowing it, I have been zigzagging my calories – and apparently its working! I’m still going to aim for 1200, but I’m not going to fret too much as long as I’m averaging out around 1200-1300.
Josh is getting me a bunch of Wii fitness games. I already have Wii Fit and Wii Fit Plus, but I’m getting My Fitness Coach 1+2, The biggest loser game, and Jillian Michael’s game. Hopefully I’ll find one I really like. Has anyone used any of these games? How are they?
I was going through new designs, and I LOVE how this one looks. My favorite colors are purple and green, and in general I just like this 100x better. So, if someone actually reads my blog – I’m letting you know that you still came to the right place – I just changed it up a little bit.
Yesterday was a bad diet day. I wasn’t home for most of the day because my fiancee (Josh), my mother, and I went to a bridal show. It was fun even though I didn’t win any of the TONS of prizes. Unfortunately when we were there the only thing they had for me to eat was pizza. Since I’m vegetarian, sometimes pizza ends up being one of the only things I can eat out. Although I didn’t make any other good choices really. I am ashamed to admit I drank half a container of white grape juice. I definitely will NOT do that again though because I paid for it with a really bad stomach ache. I think it is very ironic that I had a bad diet day while I was thinking of my wedding all day.
My mother took us to Sam’s club after the show and bought us some food (no money for groceries and my mom is such a sweetheart to help us out). Unfortunately, Sam’s does not have a lot of options for healthy stuff. Such as no wheat pasta. Instead, I ended up getting a 6lb bag of regular penne. As a result, I have a bunch of stuff that isn’t necessarily healthy, but I’m going to try with portion control on those items.
Here’s to a good day for all of us!
Yesterday I took a bunch of my measurements so I can track my progress in inches also. I plan on taking measurements once a month.
|Thighs||L: 31 R: 31|
|Calves||L: 19 R:19|
|Upperarm||L: 18 R:17.5|
|Forearm||L: 12.5 R: 12.5|
So I did do SOME exercise today I suppose. Instead of driving, my fiancee and I walked the 1/2 mile round trip to pick up our prescriptions. My ankle didn’t like it too much, but I feel good at having done it.
I changed up what I said I wanted for dinner.
I had a Lightlife Lean “fake” sausage patty with a tiny bit of mayo and some mustard. On the side I had a salad with 1/2 of a Morningstar chik’n patty and light parmesan italian dressing.
It was delicious and only around 360 calories.
The calorie count for everything I have eaten so far today works out to a total of 715, so I have PLENTY of room for a snack later.
All in all I think I had a good diet day today!
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