Blogging seems like a good idea, so I decided to start this up.
A little about me: I’m about to turn 30 years old on February 6th. This is a birthday that bothers a lot of people… but for me it was a welcome change. At least until the New Year hit, anyway.
I know so many women who are much happier in their 30’s than they ever were in their 20’s, and as a result I’ve never feared turning the big Three-Oh. People know more about themselves when they’re 30. You aren’t the confused soul you were when you were younger… instead you have a very good idea of who you are, what you want, and where you’re going. Thirty promises so much more than my wayward 20’s did.
But when the New Year hit and we spent it with friends, a photo surfaced later of me, taken without my knowledge (something I typically don’t allow — all of my photos are perfectly staged. No wonder I’ve been so out of the loop…).
And that photo was hideous.
It was already two weeks into the New Year, but I decided it was not too late to make good on New Year’s resolutions. So I stopped my bad eating habits in their tracks, went out and bought an Elliptical, and made a promise to Allah(swt) [That just means God!] to change my ways. As I approach 30 now with each passing day, I have to remember that I am not getting any younger, and if I want to live a long life from here on out, I must change my ways.
We are told in the Qur’an: [7:31] O children of Adam, take your adornment at every masjid, and eat and drink, but be not excessive. Indeed, He likes not those who commit excess.
So clearly I know that Allah(swt) does not want for me the path I have chosen … but of course I have always had the freedom to choose it anyway, and I sure went astray! But now I need to focus on what is best for me. Allah(swt) knows what is best for me.. I have to focus on that.
I particularly enjoy this dua, it helps me focus:
“O Allah, I hope for Your mercy, do not leave me for even the duration of an eye blink and correct my total condition. Besides You there is none worthy of worship”. [Hisnul Hasin]
That’s all for now.