Re-committing to WW. AGAIN. But in such a more positive way.

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I had been wondering about WW. Should I stick with it? Let’s face the facts: I’ve been there 3 months, and I’ve barely lost a pound, overall. In fact, last week, I weighed in at exactly what I’d started out with.  It’s not WW’s fault, not at all - in fact, they do tell you exactly what to do, and are there to encourage you to do it, and in fact, it seems like everyone who loses weight the WW way, does it right. Except me.

So I had been rethinking - maybe I’m not motivated enough? Maybe I’m not able to? Maybe this is how I’m meant to be - fat?? It’s hard going in every week, and re-committing myself to weight loss, and then thinking I’ll be able to do it, and trying to stay within the points (18 seems so low!).

And then I walked in last week.I was horribly disappointed, and was contemplating just walking out, going home and ordering pizza or something. But after a few minutes, I decided to stick around for the meeting anyway. And then a couple talked about how they were inspired by me (ME!) and had decided to take up a personal challenge. You see, a month ago, I had shared with the group how I was trying to do a project a month until my 30th birthday next year. (Last month, it was running for 2 miles or working out for an hour. I aimed to do 30 days of exercise, but although I didn’t do all 30 days - I did do 20 of the 30 days). I had asked the group to keep my accountable - if they could - by just asking me when they see me how my running was going. And in fact, I was pleasantly surprised by the number of people who would smile and ask me “Did you run this week, young lady?”, and pleased as punch, I would say, why yes, I ran on so and so day, and I did this class on so and so day etc.

But I didn’t expect that a month later, someone would stand up and say that seeing me do my challenge, and seeing how I’d talk about it, inspired THEM to do something similar! The couple were going on a cruise, and resolved to do the activity classes every single day they were there, and asked us to keep them accountable.

And then…this week, someone else mentioned that seeing how I always seem to have tidbit information (tips, ideas I have about “projects”, and my energy(!), and how I motivated the other couple, challenged her to re-think the way she’s been going about her weight loss!

I cannot begin to describe the euphoric GRATITUDE I felt. It made me realize why I’ve been going back week after week to the meetings, even though I havent’ lost the weight. All this time, I would walk away motivated - even though I wasn’t losing, hearing others talk would make me recommit. THAT”s why I was able to try, and try again. And it made me realize that apparently I’d been doing the same for others!!

As someone who struggles with her self-deprecrating perceptions of herself, it was wonderful to feel like what i think and do matters, that *I* matter. And that I CAN make a difference. Right now, it’s making a difference to someone else. Which is a BIG BIG - MUCH BIGGER - deal than you can imagine! :) But hopefully, one of of these days, I’ll make a difference to my own life as well :)

Oprah

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In recent times, I haven’t been interested in watching Oprah.Not that I have to connect every celebrity/character on TV to watch their show, I admit that one of the main reasons I haven’t been watching her show is because I feel she’s too far removed from my world, and the the way I think/act etc - I didn’t connect to the way she came across.

BUT have you seen this? Basically, Oprah has gained weight and is taking responsiblity. “”I’m embarrassed,” she writes. “I can’t believe that after all these years, all the things I know how to do, I’m still talking about my weight. I look at my thinner self and think, `How did I let this happen again?’”"
Suddenly, I can connect with her again. :)