2013 has not been my year!

This year has not been so good to me! It was supposed to be the year that I was able to not call in sick, to lose the weight and get healthy, the year that my bills could be paid off, and the year that things went well. So far, that has NOT been the issue! I have been sick since the beginning of the year with back and neck problems. Both my chiropractor and my regular doctor are concerned enough to have me do not only an MRI, but also a white blood cell count w/differential. I am tired all the time, often too tired to dance. While I really hate exercising, dancing has also been fun and destressing for me. I feel better when I dance and clean, plus it is a great exercise and keeps me happy. Any more, dancing or walking makes me feel so tired. I have been doing my best to eat anti-inflammatory or immune boosting foods to help my body heal with whatever it is trying to deal with right now, but I’m not making a lot of headway. I am just so tired all the time. This morning my husband could barely get me awake enough to call in sick. As soon as I finished the phone call, I went right back to sleep and didn’t hear him leave the house, sleep for 2 more hours, ate some breakfast, and laid down and sleep for almost 4 more hours. The last time I was this tired was in 2006 when I had breast cancer. My brain keeps worrying the cancer is back. I am just trying to keep myself busy and so when I feel worried, I organize things. It makes me feel better and I am thinking of what I want to do, so I can’t think of the fear. It is working and a plus side is that I am getting some projects done, but I am still afraid.

Last week I had my MRI or tried to. I didn’t realize how claustrophic I am until Friday. My doctor has arranged for me to use a WIDE OPEN MRI and I think I will be okay. RIght after the test, my husband is taking me away for a mini vacation. It is just to a local casino and then we will go hiking the next day, but I am looking forward to it.

2013 hasn’t been kind to anyone I know. My daughter is having financial difficulties, my best friend is fighting health issues as well as family issues, my heart mama is fighting age/health issues, and everyone at work I know has had or still has the nasty flu that is all over. I am doing my best to keep healthy and to exercise and eat right. Since I can’t dance or do a lot of stuff, I have been sitting on my bouncy ball and “dancing” to that. It looks so funny it makes me giggle and it is better than no exercise at all.

Well, I guess that is it. I’m off for another nap!

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