IM back on plan! yay! But because i fell off for so long.. im going thru withdrawls.. again.. its going to be a shitty couple of weeks but im okay with that.. lots of tea and gum.. and the gym.. and job hunting ..
hoping to be work by the middle of june! but we will see.. My bf.. is gone to sea this week.. and when i woke up the other day… he left me .. a wonderful note on our whiteboard…
Ill love you forever..
My heart is melting.. I love him.. I dont know what i did to find him!
I wont be at the gym today but i am going for a 20 min walk.. as well as riding the bike i have here at home.. I will go to the gym gym tomorrow.. my back is starting to hurt from not moving my body..
SO i never thought that salt affected me.. BUT oh it does.. I hate too much stuff high in salt.. and i went up almost 7 pounds just from salt! can you believe that!
fack..
im off to make lunch.. it will be
a grill chess with fat free cheese… whole wheat bread.. and some roasted red peper soup! and a large cup of tea and water!!!
-K
Posted on June 1st, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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I Oh you silly little meat,cheese and bun combo… How your devilish way have dragged me in yet again.. Ive fallen off the wagon.. hardcore.. I have been off plan for i believe about 2 weeks now.. maybe 2 and a half.. Yes i havent gone crazy like i used to.. but im feeling the effects of not eating healthy and the fact that i cant sleep.. again.. so im on here writing my blog at 130 am waiting for my sleeping pill to kick in! Im hoping that the biggest loser challenge will pull me out of this.. But i havent gained any weight.. at all just at a standstill… and the shitty thing about all of this.. I did it too myself.. I allowed this to be okay.. ITS NOT OKAY!!!!!! gah… im using my little net book in bed to write this and i forgot how small it really is… fack… goals for june..
1. get a new job asap… anything will do..
2. get back on ww.. or calorie counting
3. get my big fat ass..(well its actually flat..) back to the gym!
4. read all my books that i havent read.. before buying a new one
5. start making all my dinners again.. no more ordering in… NO MORE
loosing my job has really thrown me into a loop.. craptastic..
not that it was a good job.. but it was a job nonetheless..
hmm my sleeping pills are starting to kick in.. YAHOO sweet sweet sleep..
my bf loooks sooooooo cute when he is sleeping.. he fell asleep at 9pm.. he might be 24 but i swear he is 80… HAHA
but im off to bed… another promise.. i hope i can keep… check in every day.. 
goodnight duckys
-K
Posted on May 29th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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Im Self Sabotaging… again.. Whats new.. I have been in a funk.. and i cant seem to get out! However, i am doing the biggest loser challenge on 3FC.. Hence the banner:) Im hoping that this will get my butt in gear! My bf is off to sea in 5 days.. Im nervous.. God I love that man! I will marry him eventually.. common law is just like marriage right! lol i kid i kid…God i hate being in a funk.. I just cant seem to break it.. ITs very scary… my rabbits are going bonkers right now! im only up right now because tyler will be calling from the ship.. bleh… soo late.. but im almost done my sex and the city marathon.
Anyone else.. go through..a funk… and how the heck did you get out of it??
-K
Posted on May 27th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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Thats me and the bf at the beach:) Im officially unemployed as of today:) This will hopefully be a fantastic opportunity:) Today I stayed within my calories:) (the first time in a while!!) The BF and i went to the island farms Victoria day parade!! it was so much fun.. actually before the parade we went to his ship so he could do colours.. Then we walked all around sunny downtown and chinatown.. i drank a wonderfully large bubbletea! yum yum!! i usually get the jellies not the pearls..(the pearls are so not my thing!) Im having trouble keeping my eyes open right now.. which is totally lame!>>> well i wrote the first part.. two days ago.. IM enjoying being a bum.. but i need to hand out some res’s this week.. need a job! anything will do.. watching the biggest loser finale.. and let me tell you i always cry.. everytime! i went to the gym last night … the first time in a week and a half… sooo bad.. But i have some good/bad news.. My Bf is going… to sea… until oct.. 11th……… this will be the longest hes ever gone to sea in a year since we have been together.. im nervous.. but excited i hope i will get my ass back into gear.. and make his jaw drop…. bleh.. anyhoo.. im off to watch more tv LOL.. its a rainy day.. so im staying in!
-K
Posted on May 26th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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The last couple of days have been interesting.. on Tuesday i drove up island with my bestie.. and it was awesome.. we went to coombs, Duncan, ladysmith and the comox valley.!! It was crazy to see HMCS QUADRA!! i spent many of summers their and it looks no joke.. the exact same. Its a sea cadets camp! i have some of the best memories from there! We stopped in coombs and about some of the best caramel and chocolate i have ever tasted! yum yum yum!!! Then in ladysmith we walked down there “main drag” and took pictures.. lol If you all only knew how small it is.. SMALL!! Then we stopped in Chemainus and looked at the worlds famous murals.. then on the way home we stopped in Duncan and had dinner at this place with the best soup i think i have ever tasted!! it was such a nice drive and to get the hell out of vic was amazing.. Although.. i have not… been to the gym yet this week.. oops.. 
i also am just working this weekend then im done there.. grab my last pay cheque and peace the scene:) Today though was a really great day! i got to sleep in with the bf.. there is just something really peaceful waking up to the person you love at eleven in the morning:) then we had some breakky.. and watched o brother where art thou (good movie) and then he went to the store and grabbed dinner.. little did i know that it was for a picnic dinner! yup! a freaking picnic! He bought a rotisserie chicken.. then he ripped off the breasts and made mashed potatoes, and gravy then he also got some Gouda and crackers.. and some red bull (cause he and i dont drink regularly) and then we walked along the beach.. it was were we had our first date!:) but i will be getting mybutt back to the gym on monday! but just a quick little post cause were going back out
-K
Posted on May 21st, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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That pic is of me and the bf.. at the museum:) Well tonight Im going out for dinner with my girlys!! I can not wait!! were going to hit up the old spaghetti factory. Its so good there.. and guess what … im not going to count my calories while im there, im just going to relax and enjoy! Well I will be happy to report i will have one more pay cheque after this! thanking jesus right about now.. And i was speaking to my dad, he said he will pay for one ticket to Germany and we (as in ty and i) will have to pay for the other.. which isn’t bad.. so really we would be spending 500-600 dollars each to get to Germany.. not the 1200 dollars each i thought we would have to pay!…AND.. we have to fly in to Düsseldorf not Frankfurt..so im sure thats going to be more expensive.. bleh.. I guess that is better to be flying to Germany for that price than Ontario….? Im listening to electric feel.. love that song so much!! makes me think of when i was going to the bar a couple of years ago…last week i went to the gym 6 of the 7 days.. and im freakin tired! My body is all kinds of hurting.. but thats good right? ahaha.. god i cant wait for my carb heaven dinner.. yum… I actually slept in till 1245..Oops.. and missed my class…eek! but i feel slightly less crappy.. I know that im going through some things but i cant let me stop taking care of me..this is going to sound awful.. but im going to buy myself a new shirt dress.. why.. cause i deserve it right.. a small purchase.. for some much needed retail therapy cant be that bad….Hmm.. i need to eat and shower.. and im listening to cant be tamed by miley cryus.. and … i really like it.. haha.. okay dokie.. im off to go have a non productive day…
hope you all have super great days:)
-K
Posted on May 17th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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that is my bunny ben! I had a complete and total breakdown when i got off work today. Im getting laid off next week, and was just told on thrusday. Im going through alot of emotions and im very surprised i haven’t eaten them. Instead im just going to the gym everyday, making sure i get enough sleep and trying to eat and drink properly. I know with time i will find a new job, but i just hate that my BF pays for everything. I want to contribute, and i dont want to rely on him.. maybe thats my pride talking but i really just feel like a big chunk of poop. (graphic i know lol) Im very thankful i have the wonderful man that i do in my life. Hes my mr right. I will marry him we get our stuff together. I can’t wait though to have a new job and work a full 40 hours a week, Instead of the 30-32 hours i get now.. I had such a good cry, and he (bf) just layed in bed and held me while i sobbed and told me that everything was going to be okay and that he will make sure that i will have money and food and everything i need before he goes to sea just in case i cant get a job quick. As far as working out.. I have been 5 days since Monday! and i feel really good about it! I have been adding different things to my workouts which seem to be helping.. i am going to the gym today.. just for some cardio and weights then home to eat what ever i want.. probably hot dogs (i have been craving them like mad lately) Next week i hope to do a 10km walk/run with the bf.. should be nice out side.. it was really beautiful out the last couple of days! i cant wait for summer.. actually i cant wait for December.. Germany to finally see my parents for 4 weeks! i so need a vacation.. If i do get a job quick.. i will actually be able to go on the Alberta trip which i so badly want to do with my bestie.. we would be driving to Alberta for a week! I have gone down another 16 inches since last time i did my measurements! which is nuts i have now lost 27 inches all over my body! ya ya ya!
but im off to the gym
hope you all doing better than me!
-kate
Posted on May 15th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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So i have been super busy these last couple of weeks. Had no time to write and when i did.. i chose pjs tea and a book! The last time i blogged was after drinking too much.. Well lets see.. Im down 5percent body fat in a month! can you believe it! i cant! I have been emailing a chickey off of 3fc and she is pretty awesome.. we have been setting mini challenges and were going to start sending little prezzies in the mail! who doesn’t love getting stuff via snail mail? I went hard at the gym today, i mean kicked my own ass.. and get this i did ten min on the stair master..!! The bf and i cancelled the cable.. its so weird not having tv.. we will get used to it though.. we rent alot of movies from my work cause i get them for free:) School started up this week and i already want to jab my eyes out.. im just not a writer.. i try really hard.. but it just isnt my thing… ack… i had the longest day today! im soooo tired but my sheets arent done drying..:( I have been up since 530 am.. went to school at 730 class was 830 to 1130.. then from there right to the gym then home to eat then to work and got home at 103pm.. then i cleaned the whole house and did 2 loads of laundry!!! sad news though.. our futon couch has finally lost the fluffiness.. i feel the bars in my ass and it hurts! hahah but im soo tired i am going to make a cup of tea and wait for my laundry to finish!\
hope your all doing well..
-k
Posted on May 14th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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Thats me in the middle..but if you’ve been reading my blog than you probably know that already! Okay so i thought i was dying yesterday.. For the love of god dont drink as much as i did.. and i mean i drank alot! It was tons of fun danced my ass off.. said goodbye to a good friend.. saw a bunch of people i haven’t seen in ages! I went down ten pounds the other day.. SO awful! But im back up seven today which im happy about! so im officially at 257.0 Which means im down ten pounds! since march 22nd! Which also means… i only need to loose ten pounds 9 more times.. (doesn’t seem as daunting this way!) i totally forgot i start school again on Monday! Im hoping i stick with it again and my boyfriend leaves for sea on Monday which makes me sad but thats his job! it will be nice though to go to the gym and not feel guilty for not spending time with him.. god i get paid next week.. and half of it is already gone to bills.. and school..!gah never enough money anymore.. oh well but i gotta eat some lunch then roll to work! see ya!
-K
Posted on April 30th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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that pic of me..i was at 200 pounds… man i wish i was there right now!!! thats okay in 59 more pounds i will be!!! Im going to the clubs tonight first time since i gained all this weight.. its the guy who is in the pic above.. hes moving to Vancouver… so sad but im excited from him.. IM drinking probably hard i never intend to drink.. but i usually end up drinking alot.. i need a night out.. i also would like to see how much i will go up .. we will see.. i haven’t the slightest idea what im going to wear … maybe jeans maybe a little black dress.. maybe some tights.. who the f knows.. screw weight watchers.. im counting calories.. and its working better for me.. I gave cal counting another try.. and now i love it.. i also got my iphone back! (i smashed the glass a couple of months ago:() and have been using the app loose it to track my cals and exercise! I also watched two movies this week… one.. the young victoria.. i loved it! and the stoning of soraya m. which is amazing i sobbed like a baby but man.. we are soo lucky.. i dont even think we realize it.. i highly recommend this movie….. Work has gotten better thank god…! OMG.. so i was holding my bunny and he was hoping all over me.. and he jump off my shoulder and hit his little nose on the chair.. and got a fat and bleeeding lip i nearly died!! my poor bunny! Hes better today he got lots of treat!! he is hopping around the house right now actually! but im off to get ready
-K
Posted on April 28th, 2010 by 2phatinvictoria
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