So, Today, I was just sitting at home doing homework.. and procastinating.. as usual.
And, I was just thinking about my problems. I think about my relationship problem and the way I still struggle with myself and accepting who I am. And.. I just get all depressed and stuff. And then, I wish I didn’t have so much problems to worry about. I wonder how wonderful life would be without any problems. I wonder how crappy my life is right now.
And then, it hit me. My life isn’t crappy. And I don’t have that much problem. Sure, I have a few problems that drives me insane sometime, but everyone has problems. I’m not the only one struggling. And, then, I think about why I was sitting here and feeling all depressed in the first place. I don’t have to be unhappy. I do have control over my emotion. It’s such a waste of time to be unhappy.
I think that in this world, we all have problem. I think about 3fatchicks, and thought about all the bloggers on here. I’m sure you girls also have your own problems in life too and in the meantime, you also have to deal with your weight. And I realize, that there is a lot of stuff in this world that can mess with us..make us feel depressed. And sometime, in that depression, we lose sight of what is really important.
I don’t know, I’m not much of a writer. But I feel that I can make a difference in my life. I’m not perfect and nobody is. I have problems and bullshit I have to deal with on daily basis and I’m sure you have them too. But that is no reason to be sad or complain over. I think we can be the bigger person and deal with it, and make it better for ourself.
THus, I got up, and I decided I wanted to do something different today. Instead of shutting myself at home and procastinating, I will go out to lunch with people that I care about. I called up my baby cousin, and we went to eat thai food together. The meal was really fattening.. but we ate ourself silly. Just me and him. Haha, He ate so much that he could barely breathe. We didn’t talk much but I think we both had a really good time.
And.. that made my sunday! It really does. Today was worth living and there really is something worth celebrating for. Instead of being depressed, I choose to make my life better. I choose to have lunch with my baby cousin and that made me happy.
So, if you are reading my post now, and you are sad about your life. I just want to let you know that things does get better. You just have to hang in there during the hard time, and it will be better. However, good things don’t come by itself. You have to stand up and make it better for yourself. You have to be strong and be the stronger person.
This goes with everything we do. Whether we are suffering from our weight, our life goals, our relationship with other people.. or anything else. We have to make it better for ourself. And it start by doing something different.
For me today, it was loneliness. The feeling of inadequate.. the feeling of lost. I know, it’s weird. But that’s what I’m struggling over. And, by having lunch with my baby cousin, I feel happy. He cheered me up without even knowing it. And this “better” thing, didn’t happen because I continue to shut myself at home. NO, I go up and did something to improve the situation.
So, that’s what I learn. We gotta be proactive! THus, if you are frustrated and sad right now, you need to do something different to make yourself better. Things only get better only if YOU choose to make it better!!!
Here is a song that I feel really describe the moment:
[One Republic: Good Life] http://youtu.be/XckMvJYNZOc