Total Calories: 1500? I’m not even sure anymore. I didn’t count. I ate what I would ate normally.
I am kinda depressed today. Maybe it’s because I had 2 hours of sleep last night. Maybe it’s the over dose on caffeine. Or maybe, it’s my current performance in school. Or maybe, it’s because I saw my friend today. Gosh, she is still so pretty, and fashionable and stylished.. and I asked her about how she did on her midterm, and she said she did “okay”. But .. I know what “okay” mean. “Okay” mean.. she probably Ace it.
And.. I look at myself.. I was wearing a hood, my hair tied up, I was sleep deprived.. and.. I kinda felt sad. Because she is so great, and I tried to be somewhat as great as her.. and yet, I keep failing. I didn’t do so well on my midterm. Some of my expectation were let down… and worse off, I don’t think I’m losing any lbs this week. I been sleeping very little.. and at irregular hours. I’m overworking myself trying to find a better way to study.. and getting all of my school work done.
In the midst of all this madness and sadness in my life, I talked to my mom. She told me I got a lot to be greatful about.. and that I shouldn’t complain too much. And..that if I keep trying, one day, I’ll reach my dream.. and my weight goals. I’ll make it all happen someday.. if I keep trying. And, who ever said this was easy?
I hope everyone on 3fatchicks are doing well. I am sorry I haven’t been very active. I’m trying to be.. but I need to get things figure out at school first. I haven’t done digital update in weeks. and I doubt i’ll do one this week.. But i’ll try.
Yea, maybe the late nights is getting to me, and making me all depressed and stuff like this and that.
Good night world, b/c tomorrow, I’M gonna try again. 123 lbs.. here I come .