freedom & blogs….

Yesterday I made some changes. I was in the lunchroom and a few of us were talking about the governments Do Not Call List and how they were selling that list to telemarketers. Kind of defeats the entire do not call thing hmm? I digress, I made the remark about Citi calling me every bloody night..of course it is a pita..so I said I will fix that. I just cut up the credit card I have of theirs. I am sure they are trying to either sell me card insurance or some other thing..and I do not want that. So this will fix that. Then as I was thinking of it, I said to heck with this, I have plans to renovate that do not include credit cards, so I cut up my main and only other one. *shudder* People thought I was nuts, cutting them up. I started it as an angry thing with the card company, but ended it feeling so much better. Funny how taking control of something can make that difference. I spoke to the other half suggesting he also cut at least one of his up. No reply. Typical. he has them because I handle his finances and make sure he doesn’t miss a payment and he thinks it is all his work so therefore doesn’t want to lose them. The goof.

 

   The 2nd thing. I have been reading a few blogs that really made sense to me. Not that others haven’t, just every now and then a few resonate deep within and you say AHA or I feel you sister! Happy Hags was one I read this morning about the ATE 8 88 etc. I was with her all the way. And I went proactive about it. I opened my fitday tracker, and started it up again. I think being aware of exactly how many calories I intake.consume helps me not intake/consume those damned Mars bars etc. I do not even like them so why in the heck am I eating them????? So this will help. Today I called in sick. I said my knees were bad today. I haven’t had a sick day in a long time..and I am going to use it pro-actively. I am also going to finish the book  A Million Little Pieces. I don’t care what oprah says etc. I find it an intense book that has me gripped. It is also the reason I was  reading in bed until after 11pm  when I went to bed at 8pm!!!

 

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the proverbial lightbulb has turned on…

       Have you ever needed one of those moments…where you just feel like a light bulb went off and things made sense….& then you got it? Well I needed one, and got one this morning. I was kind of adding extra calories on lately…sneaking those chocolate bar or stuff..or maybe those stupid butterscotch candies our HR person has in her office. I am going for a w.i later next week and I am thinking I may not have lost weight. I haven’t even been drinking water…when it is cold out I find I do not seem to want to drink it! So this am I already have my vitamins in, a large cup of water and am about to have brekkie. this am it is cheerios…yes I can have them! I would much rather have multigrain ones, but I did not check out their calories info at the grocery store. I should Google it..*grin* Google is our friend!
    Brekkie finished…plain cheerios just aren’t the greatest. It reminds me of that horrible puffed wheat we had as a kid *gag* but I survived it!
    When I was watching that show x-weighted this am, they did the stairs called Jacob’s ladder. 130 stairs or something like that. I loved doing things like that, although I wasn’t very good….but with my knees ….well they elimates that. I think I am going to have to either go and see a physiotherapist or talk to a trainer to see what excercises I can do safely with the OA without causing too much more damage to them. I know because I do not bend them much anymore they are very weak and tend to give out sometimes ….and I really want to make the knee muscles stronger to protect the joints. I guess either way it would be a sound financial investment.
     Later I am going to attack the pile of dishes (I hate that), my laundry, finish up my bedroom, steam the kitchen floor..steam out the griller and make some meals for me for next week. Preparation is the key..I know it, I just chose to ignore it at times.

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 22nd, 2009 | 1 Comment »

muliple of musings….action required

Happy Sunday all!
    Another cool day here in NB and looking outside I can see it has just started to snow again. Good grief I am tired of snow! The plow was by today before any snow started..maybe it was a self fulfilling prophecy? Maybe I need to find that plow and flatten it’s tires! Ha!
     Today has not been a good day so far as weight loss goes. I have the munchies big time…and I need to buy more groceries, bread etc. Lots of previous foods that I shouldn’t eat but little of what I should eat!
     After a bit I am going to make another budget and do up post dated cheques. I usually do not send out cheques but I need to make it and stick to it..just like my diet! Ha! Then after that I am finally going to transfer clothes out of the ugly blue dresser and utilize that armoire I put together last weekend!! It has been sitting empty all week and it is time to switch the room around and fill that up! Things like that, the declutter and positive planning always make my mind clearer and the emotions better. I read once when you live in a cluttered environment your mind is cluttered also. I can see that and I do feel like that. Since I am the one to do 90% of the cleaning here, I guess I need to take care of me!
    The Nascar race is on so I can not vacuum or anything like that, but I will go into the bathroom and scrub that out, then hit my bedroom and get that all fresh and tidy. Take out the shark steamer and do the floors. That is a great little thing! I keep thinking I should really scrub down the walls too. Even though they were painted 5 months ago I think they should still be done…and perhaps even a recoat with a low sheen vs. flat for the hall. but then, I want to change the colors anyways. Ahhh lots of plans I just have to get up to it.
      There are days the computer has been a Godsend of info, support etc and then days where I have literally let it eat up days if not weeks of time. Anyone else do that? Perhaps it is an easier way not to face what needs facing????? or perhaps it is a way that lets me be LAZY..which heaven knows I need to get out of and get doing my stuff..like finish the dozen renovation things that were started but not finished by the crappy contractor anthony smith (crook)
8:10pm   Bathroom scrubbed down and de-cluttered..and my bedroom..well I now have 2 huge garbage bags full of things I decieded I just did not need anymore. I tend to be a packrat about some things, so this was a cleansing for me. I found some old photos and the last Christmas card Mom & Dad gave me..in which I cried over again. I decieded to put it in my photo-album…so I can remember it and the fact Mom and I kind of made up that Christmas..and to be glad…she passed away 12 days later. I still miss her   alot.
    I threw away socks, shirts and scarves I have had since the 80’s but somehow found a way to still wear to festive occasions. Time to relinquish some of that stuff! If I was into Oprah, I think she would say I could now bring things in. Or maybe I was so overdue at throwing things out even though I brought things in I still haven’t made up yet!
     Laying in a freshly changed bed with clean blankets, having showered and finally listening to the eagles cd I got for Christmas 2 years ago typing on my laptop…what a relaxing way to end the weekend! *yes, I should be ashamed that I couldn’t find that cd until this evening….not so sure it matters though..I am not so crazy about it. A bit too lethargic for me at this point in time.
    Tomorrow is another day..may we all wake up to a day filled with promise and hope….
Much love and may God bless y’all.
                              Heather

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 15th, 2009 | 1 Comment »

a million reasons to be thankful…

        The latest sadness in the news was the crashing of the Dash 8. I was just reading some of the reports of the people who missed the planes..due to bad weather or long lines..and it makes me think, God bless for those small things..and my heart is saddened for the ones who have lost their lives, their loved ones..their friends and more. Some days instead of looking at how much a red light or a line up or a long winded customer has taken up time, maybe reflect a give a silent thank you..because we just do not know what could have come if not for that.

Today is Valentine’s day. Sitting on the couch early this am..S/O has come home from work, he is on his laptop (said he did not need one, he would use the computer in the bedroom if he wanted to be on a computer…now he is always with his laptop//ha) telling me all the things in the news that annoys him while I play happy relaxing music..Selah by Lauren Hill right now…a beautiful song..he of course does not like it. So to celebrate love, I am going to visit my Nan at her home today. I think I might bring her a small thing of ice cream and hope she eats some….and some pretty carnations…I wish I could find some pansies too…but no one has those right now. I should have thought way ahead and bought seeds last year to grow indoors to bring her on my visits…She and I share purple pansies..we used to plant them here when I moved in. the photo a few posts away have the pansies she and I bought and planted….

 Nan is in a seniors home…she doesn’t want to eat anymore..dementia is almost completely taken over..but I have been so blessed that she did recognize me the last few times. After an hour she wants me to leave..she isn’t used to many visitors anymore..but I am thankful for anytime I get to spend with Nan. I grab those moments and they help fill up my memory bank for when Nan is no longer with us. I will have them to smile with..Nan brought me up for awhile when I was very little and we have always shared this kind of bond. Good or bad we have had our times…but always there.  How can someone not be there for her in this time, whether or not she recognizes you? Nan,  was born in 1914…brought up in an orphanage in England, named Mary Z…for all girls there were named Mary and then with an alphabetical way. She drove a tank during a war through the narrow London streets at night (she never drove again when she was older). Her wedding photo with Grampy, she is in her uniform.  ————————>

I think she still remembers Grampy. She gets sad when you talk about him, so I try not to..but I am not sure if that is the right thing to do or not. Not trying to discount Grampy’s life or Nan’s life with him. Some things I think I make too hard and some things not hard enough. The strange Saturday musings of a person who has read CNN and been saddened I guess.

 

   

              This morning I am going to head in for a weigh in….since that is what this blog I guess is supposed to be about…I am having a bit of problem right now, not getting my water in…it is sooo cold out, with the large warehouse doors by my desk and the strangeness of the head office thinking we should have the air conditioning unit on during part of the day when the temp is lower than -20 degrees baffles me…and makes it harder to drink the water. S/O said to consider drinking warm or hot water with lemon…or rose in it (BARF). I might try that. Any other suggestions with better flavour ideas? Would a slice (or chunk) of orange maybe last in it and would it still qualify as water with that??? I will have to ask when I go in for my weigh in this am…face the evil music. *gulp*  I haven’t been writing in my food diary either…I need to start doing that again as well. It really does help. Obviously trying to do things myself doesn’t work. *gee I wonder how I figured that one out”..grin..

 

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 14th, 2009 | 2 Comments »

forgetting to be grateful…

 

 

  Some day’s we forget how fortunate we are. We (mainly ME) forget to thank God for the fact I have a house for shelter, a man who loves me, 2 wonderful 4 legged furry beasts with hearts bigger than them and God. I forget that I am fortunate to have a job I enjoy, enough food, a vehicle, my health (even with arthritis) and many friends. I forget these by concentrating on what I do not have, or can not do or don’t like etc. I just focus on being selfish and angry…     This week I was given a reminder again. The chance to see another sunset, the chance to kiss Jessie-Blues nose, the chance to say Hi again to a friend, to laugh or smile or read my Bible. A friend was killed in a worksite accident on Thursday. He was only 37, newly married with 2 young children. I find I keep going back to his facebook pictures and it makes me sad. I know his new wife as well and my heart breaks for her, and for his 2 little ones.     It makes you stop and take inventory or at least should.

    So today I am going to make a  conscious decision to be thankful…to make use of my time, to say THANK YOU for everything I have. I encourage you, who are reading this blog to also stop and be thankful…hug the ones you love, love the ones you hug, and thank God for everything, meager or generous….

    Today I CAN do anything, because I was given another day, another day to wake up to and see a sunrise, with love.

 

Rest with God Rob, you will not be forgotten.

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Faith is a living, daring confidence in God’s grace, so sure and certain that a man could stake his life on it a thousand times.
Martin Luther

 

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 8th, 2009 | 1 Comment »

I am thankful..

  Last night I was sent a message on DFacebook that one of my friends from a different workplace was killed in an accident. This has saddened me greatly. I had run into him over the summer and he looked great. he was happily married to a wonderful lady, had great kids & a good life. he wasn’t even 40 yet. It stops a person in their tracks and makes them thankful for what they have been griping about. I was given another wonderful morning…I was given the heart smile of an email from my s/o and the love of my pups…Rob wasn’t, and neither has his family… Stop and call your loved ones, give them a hug, thank God for having another sunrise….

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 6th, 2009 | No Comments »

& i thought we had snow!

  At least until I saw the email regarding Saskatoons snow pile! We have very little compared to them!

   Today is my day off, and i went for the weigh-in. Yesterdays journey of the scale showed I was up 3 lbs. Today was down again. So I had good vibes. Went into the centre…down again! Now I am 18.2lbs (hey that .2 counts) and 4 more inches…so -22″ so far!! yaya me! So how did I celebrate?? Buy buying more Asian pears and a bag of double bite brownies..can you feel where I am going with this…The pears made it home..the empty brownie bag too.. Now why in blue blazes did I eat that?? I figured out I just had 170 calories with that!!! Veggies and water for the day! Now idea why..I wasn’t even really happy with them…A big mac would have had less than that but I would not have bought one. I am not going to dwell on this, but I won’t go for a weigh in until Monday…*guily me*

  I think i am going to tackle putting my new armoire together. It has been here a week and it isn’t getting too far so far. So after the blog, I will make some energy tea (strong!) do the dishes and then get to the job of puttin git together. A friend who also bought one said it had no instructions besides a photo of it armoirefinished, so I think maybe a wise woman (ME ha) would go tot he website and see what they have for manuals etc. Been there, guess what, a lovely photo or 3 with dimensions….*sigh* better add some khalua to the tea. hahah. may take a bit longer, but at least that will keep me OUT of the kitchen and fridge!

 

 

      So if anyone has some really yummy ways to cook pork I would love to hear it. I have some prok thawing in the fridge and am looking for ways besides grilling or slowcooking to make it more interesting.

 

  Happy Thursday Friends! Best fortune to you!

 

2:54pm   Have boxes apart..found booklet (yay) on how to assemble. they even give you a nubby driver which is hilarious! About to tackle it..only 1 gouge in wall so far..hey it was heavy and came out of the box fast!

 

4:05pm..now to the hammering part..it may wake up the s/o..so i am not sure what I am going to do ..maybe skip that part and continue to another…oh and I could not find the hammer..so i am using part of a socket wrench..my wrench so i can use it how I want right? *snicker* 

Note to self..buy new hammer..since contractor *Ahem* shitty contractor left it out in the rain and I found it a month later…it was covered in rust anyways…

…so and so far I am winning…minus the gouge in the wall from part of the side falling out of the box and being caught by the wall. *snicker*

 

 

8:40pm..danmed thing is done. argues with s/o over how to do it..I know he doesnt and gets his pissy face going…somedays I think he has too much progesterone..

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 5th, 2009 | 1 Comment »

go me, go me, go me…*woot woot*

 

I feel good~! I am really excited that I went for a w.i today and I am down another 1.2lbs! I am just  0.2lbs away from hitting the 15lb mark! *doing litlle happy dance jiggle*
The other half just finished his pizza ( I had grilled burger with ff cheese and steamed veggies with becel) the dogs got some leftovers and now they think they are just so special. *grin* but then, they ARE! i was vacuuming after work and did a little bit on Jake. oooooh bad move. he jumped up howled and panicked. Since he seems to like it when I blow dry him in the am now(following Jessie-Blue’s move of loving that), I thought maybe like Jes, he would like the vacuuming. W R O N G. HUGE W R O N G..poor pup!
   Good day at work, although the asian pears I bought from a different grocery store were so disgusting I threw them away! After the weigh in I to the usual place and bought some good ones. Just had one too. Nice and super juicy….although the crappy ones made me miss 2 fruit. But I will be ok without that extra fruit today. I am going to have a 100cal treat though….a mint chocolate bar! yum yum yum!
  Things at work are scary for so many people right now…the letting go of 1000’s of people due to the US economy. I am so blessed that where I am the Canadian economy is thriving…but they have ben re-structuring anyways and a few people have lost their jobs. I am so very fortunate to have a job I enjoy and am financially rewarded for. There are so many right now that do not. We have a new HR, well i suppose about 3 months now..She knows how to make the associates feel appreicated, and ensures that the manager knows it too. That he should be talking to us etc. guiding him….same as the management team. It feels good to be in a place where they are recognizing us and rewarding us for it as well. After 2 years it feels funny, but in a good way! Hope you feel the same about where you work.
minty
Anyways, that bar is calling to me..sweetly…chocolately…mintly…heheheh
C ya tomorrow!

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How far away can Spring be?

 
      I really shouldn’t be complaining, considering what inkheartmegs’ parents are going through, but I am SO tired of this frigging snow and cold weather. -28 plus wind chill one day, then up to -4 the next & 15cm snow. So we get the snow again yesterday and guess what the weather toads tell us? Yes, that is right..more freaking snow Tuesday! The city still hasn’t cleaned up the last 2 storms, the roads are barely wide enough for 2 cars unless it is a main road! This anchor ice that clings to the pavement has made such a hard travel of the day. 2″ high ice sheets all over the place that won’t scrape off the roads !

 

Filed under: Uncategorized on February 1st, 2009 | 1 Comment »

mushrooms…mmmmmmmmm

last night I cheated…oh dear me..*grin* Everyone needs a little break. Things are good though!  I ate breaded mushrooms baked in the oven… not as good as deep fried, but I wasn;t about to go whole hog off the program. Hahaha. This morning I got back up, have my vitamins , eggs and toast…back to the world of weight loss. Scale did show some increase, but I was expecting it regardless today for the t.o.t.m.

  I was telling a lady this week at work about the weight loss, and her reply was “good, now lets hope you keep it up”. See last time I lost over 40 lbs and just stopped. She obviously had to tell me that…I get it, I just wish she hadn’t said that. I haven;t told many people at work for that reason. I just tell them I am not buying form the lunch lady because I was spending far too much money doing that last year and I want to save money.

   The other half says he is sick again. He stayed home from work lasy night because he had a headache…what he may not realize is, I have decieded that all these sick nights take $ OUT of his “allowance” he gets out of his pay. It all goes into my account *he was screwing it up in his..bills not being paid etc* so now it is all in mine and I have the responsibility of paying them. I think he has actually taken 3 days off so far since the beginning of the year. I am beginning to wonder if he actually even thinks of how much money he deosn’t make, and where is the cut-off of the call centre’s  aceptance of his illnesses? Especially since cut backs abound lately!!!

  Anyways, a snowy day here and we have already begun to pick at each other. He has been using the word hell allot lately. he is sick as hell, or hell this etc. It bugs me and I told him he was saying ti with everything. he got mad and pissy faced instead of stopping and saying, am I? gee I did not know. He knows I do not like that stuff…but it get’s worse. oh well….another day in paradise right?

 

  no more whining! going to have a good day and later go out and get some more asian pears..I love those fruits!

 

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