Yesterday was a stressful day.  Some bad stress some good stress.  We started out working with the Sherriffs dept to made sure Chris couldn’t take Cheyenne for the entire Christmas break, which he thought he was entitled to.  It took all day, we never could get in front of a judge, but it ended up at the discression of the deputy who listed to Rebecca read the divorce decree and decided on the intent and that Chris was wrong.  He called Rebecca back and said Chris would pick her up at 10 am Christmas morning and that was what we had been fighting for all along.  Finally someone listened to what was written.  She is going to a lawyer to get things changed to a TN order on Monday.  Hopefully that will end alot of the crap.  Chris makes things up and goes by whatever state laws give him what he wants.  He just plan lost this battle. 

While fighting that fight we were working on getting  a trip to Nashville together so Luke could surprise Angela with an engagement ring.  3 years of dating has finally paid off for her.  But it is hard to suprise her, thats for sure.  We did it though. 

I also had an exterminator come just to throw some fun into the mix.  So all day I didn’t eat anything.  I was planning to but someone would come or call or something would side track me.  We ended up at Steak and Shake after we left Angela with Luke.  They got Crab Ravioli and I had a bacon cheeseburger and a giant milk shake.  Not a good choice but I was hungry and tired and needed food fast.  This morning we got up and went and got Dunkin Donuts.  I ate 2 and had a hot chocolate and now I am felling sick.  I am not working really hard on dieting, just trying to be aware of what I eat.  I am really aware that I shouldn’t have had donuts.  I just wanted them.  I lost 6 lbs at weigh in on Thursday.  I was shocked.  I will just try to not have a gain this week.   If I do then I will just have to take it off again.  That is why I am the yo yo queen  I guess

Well, last night sucked, I finished the chips.  I won’t be buying anymore though so that is a good thing.  I had a pretty good day today, had some ice cream and popcorn earlier.  I did FINALLY get on the treadmill.  Lasted about 35 minutes.  Not that I was worn out, I was bored.  That is the hardest part of exercise, it bores me.  But at least I did something and that is a start.

Had a pretty good day today, it is almost midnight though and the chips are calling.  I ate a grapefruit for breakfast, a WW flatbread for lunch and taco salad for dinner.  I had dessert, pineapple upside down cake.  I haven’t had anything since then, but as usual the night munchies are setting in.  I have been scanning pictures so I have been able to fight the urge.  Don’t want to get chip grease on my pictures.  But I am tired of scanning and the munchies are still here.  I am hoping I win the battle.  Coming here last night seemed to help, after I wrote I didn’t eat again.  funny how that works

This is my first blog ever.  I am 53 and have just crossed back into the 200s.  I lost 100 lbs several years ago and have been up and down ever since.  I want to get back to around 140.  I am hoping I can use this blog to fill time at night rather than munch.  I am a night snacker.  I am a chocoholic.  I loose all willpower when stressed and the stress level has been through the roof around here. All I can do is start again and hope for the best